Friendship

I spent a good majority of my life jumping from group of friends to group of friends. I was the drifter. I had a decent amount of friends, but I was always on the outside. It was good because I usually managed to avoid drama. haha It was bad because I never really had a close friend; someone I could tell anything to and just be my crazy ol' self with. I had some good friends, but I tended to put up a lot of barriers.

After high school, life changed. I changed. I became comfortable with who I am. I tore down many of my barriers and let myself be open to true friendships. I am blessed with many great friends, without whom I don't know how I'd survive the crazy life I live here at MCAD as an animation student.


I've always been one to put my friends first. After being "burned" by a friend at a young age, putting friends first was a way for me to "ensure" that they'd continue being my friends... or so I realized later on. Don't get me wrong, I still cared for my friends, it just wasn't a totally selfless act. Constantly trying to keep a friendship isn't the way to keep a friendship. There has to be trust. Trust that even if you say or do something stupid, they'll still stick by you. If they don't, well, then they aren't worth the worry. 


Today I find myself putting my friends first because I truly want to. They mean the world to me. I'd drop everything in a heartbeat for my friends. I have their back no matter what. I care for my close friends as I care for my family. They're my second family. I'm not trying to keep friends by saying and doing things that I think are right anymore. I'm keeping friends by just being myself. The ones that matter are at my side, accepting me for who I am. They're the ones I'd give my life for. 


For me, getting to this point means I've battled and conquered by past demons. I'm at a point where these kind of friendships can happen. I'm at a point I've wanted to be at for years.